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Saturday, September 12, 2009 Now, what was that abt? Oh, no-no. *shakes head* That wasn't some sorta story which i've fudged together. It was love's description of a nightmare that tormented him last weekend. On a Sunday, the one day I usually snooze my morning away in slumberland, rolling out of bed only when the rest of the house starts stirring to life with each member, fussing over their affairs. This time, however, came with a twist. I was jolted conscious not by my family's sunday antics but by a phone call from love. I would be tale-telling if i said I fasted that day bcoz hearing love's blubbering voice on the other side of the receiver sent multiple arrows charging to my heart, I couldn't help losing the battle against my tears. Like a child who just lost his mom, love sounded like he was crying his eyes out! My mind went into a state of blank when love struggled to put across questions like, "Dear, r u ok? R u reli ok?" in between sobs to me. I kept giving words like, "I'm reli ok dear. U'r talking to me now, aren't u? Stop crying my dear. I'm fine. What went wrong?" in my bid to bring forth some sense of assurance. It took a while before love finally managed to cool his heels and break through his sniffles with a "I had a nightmare and I cldn't save u, niku!" exclamation. Fighting to keep his head throughout, love gave me his insights shortly after. I drew a long breath. Learning that all was sheerly a dream and nothing untoward had taken place gladden my heart. I reasoned, "Silly boy, it was only a dream. I'm stil here my dear, i'm not gonna leave u. Now, don't cry anymore." My poor darling, he must have been scared out of his wits to be crying like a baby. Love seem prone to letting bad dreams get to him but really, he has never before woken up bursting into tears like he did that day. I know that whatever happens in our sleep is beyond control, but to hear him weep away like that, I was sure that this one was an extra bitter pill for him to swallow. I dreaded hearing how miserable he sounded over the phone. I wanted so much to just embrace him, to let him feel my presence. Since then, love's become sucha worrywart about not being able to hear my voice the next day till I've to coax him to go to sleep every night. I remember one time during his NS days, when love actually sprang out of bed in an attempt to reach me in his dreams. Despite catching sight of me in that delusion, each time love tried to make a run, i seem to drift further away. When he got to a point of agitation, love decided to go for a leap and that decision only resulted in him ramming hard against his bedside locker bcoz he seriously jumped off his bed in a trance. I thanked god that he was on the lower half of the double-decker. I didn't even wanna mull over which bone of his could have been broken if that move had been from the upper deck. It pains me down to my soul everytime i hear or see him fall apart like that and each time, i would end up shedding tears too. I guess what i'm trying to get at is, 6 years of love with him has truly made our hearts beat as one. The thick jungle of differences which we've once struggled to come out of has finally become a harmony of beautiful creatures and floras complementing each other. Today, i'm pleased to say that our bond has grown so intense that his laughter becomes mine, his sorrow becomes mine and his pain becomes mine too. Only god knows what would become of me if I ever have to breathe through a day without him to make the picture whole and to you my love, I just want u to know that I'm never gonna go anywhere without you, not without kissing you goodbye. I'll brave storms and hurricanes just to get to you and if ever the day comes when he has to take me away, pls note in mind, that you'll always be with me, in my heart. I'll never lose the memory of your charming face, how your hands fit perfectly into mine, the soft strokes of your fingers on my cheek, everything, down to the funny faces you'd pull just to see me smile. I'll always be grateful for the splashes of colours you've brought into my once, unanimated canvas of a life. I pray day and night that he doesn't summon me home before I live my life complete with you and yes my dear, you mean to me just as much as i do to you and I can't afford to lose u ever again either! Rest easy tonight ok my love and have sweet dreams of me bcoz like I've said too many times, i promise to answer evrytime you call. MY WORLD REVOLVES AROUND YOU, MUHAMMAD MUSTAQIIM BIN AYUB AND I LOVE YOU TO DEATH. :'') .jpg) For I'll always be here to hold you close and catch your tears. Everything's gonna be alright, i promise. So cry no more and let me chase away your fears. |
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