"It is our belief that the world is only a short-lived and momentary test.
Time waits for no man thus everyday's an inevitable race to achieve our best.
Nevertheless my dearest, today of all days is your day.
So embrace the year elegantly and have it your way.
For it is a promise, that even a hundred years later,
My unconditional love towards you will never yield to falter."
May you be bless with the many happy returns of today and every other day my precious. Insya'allah, amin.
I LOVE YOU, ALWAYS AND FOREVER! :))
Sweet Surprise
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Everytime my nifty handset tinkles with the term 'private number' flashing on my display screen, two souls would strike my mind. One, my beloved lil' sis. Two, my hell of a trouble, nonsensical working colleague. So, when my ringtone went off while I was making my rounds at Far East on a lunch break that Thursday, 26 March 09, I was figuring the latter, especially since it was during working hours but I was wrong. Much to my astonishment, the voice that jingled on my receiver actually brought about a sweet surprise, a heartwarming one in fact!
"Hi, may I speak to Reena?.....This is Liana callin from Ngee Ann Polytechnic. I'm pleased to inform you that your application etc etc etc..."
I don't suppose I need to elaborate any further, do i?hee. Uh-huh, my application got through! Yipee! So now, I'm only left with getting all my administrative work straighten out for verification before the term begins. Oh my god! really there's no amount of words favorable enough to convey the gush of relief that flooded me upon receiving the news. It's like after the numerous letdowns, indeed I was right when I hoped that my employer's magnanimity was the onset of my sunny days ahead. Syukur alhamdulillah! Now, that's a huge load off my mind! My patience paid off duly. Thank god! Anyway, school commences 2nd April 09, real quick isn't it?hee. Funny but im eager thou, it feels sooo the incredibly good to be back on track!hee. ;D
"I love you my prettyboy! Thanks for being my pillar, for being the reason to my laughters and grins every time. I am what I am because of you, because of what you made me realise. I am strong only because of you and our love, this beautiful and everlasting affinity between you and i, a bond like no other and I'm thankful for having you, i truly am! :)"
NO thanks
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
So four days ago, Friday to be exact, something unanticipated took place. One so hilarious that it left my stomach tickling with amusement!haha! Nah, nothing too absurd but it sorta caught me off guard, i must confess. Just exactly what was spinning through their puny lanes of a mind?? Did they really think I still needed their recognition very much at this juncture? After almost two months of pitiless negligence, leaving me to wallow in misery all by myself! Put this curtly, thanks but NO thanks! Sorry but a sense of gratitude from me is plainly, out of the question! Oh right, myself being too independent hurts you two, doesn't it? Which is why you guys couldn't care less, choosing to leave my fate in my own hands. Well, newsflash your excellencies! Unfortunately for you both, i'm doing splendid you know. Yes, even without ur guidance, in case this fact escaped your apparently accurate, scrutinizing skills and by the way, everything's long passed, even if you had a sudden turnover of heart, it'l be of little good coz the crucial period's over and done, like two weeks ago, excuse me! My, u weren't even aware of this, were u? Gosh, call urself my guardians, only by status it seems! Even worse, living under one roof with me! Argh! Ya-ya, i know, who's to blame? I never did keep u guys updated about yours truly anyway, true enough? Now-now, don't start pointing your fingers at me coz u guys never bothered an ounce, from start to finish! There wasn't even one word of worry that spat out of those mouths eversince, so what has that gotta do with me?! Whatever ok. Anyhow, thanks for cracking me up with the supposedly convincing & genuine act of concern that day ey, really! And don't go declaring me rude & insensible. I've just expressed my thank-you, haven't i? Like finally, an acknowledgement! How thoughtful! *roll eyes* U almost got me fooled there, sir & madam. Geez. :)
Upgrade
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
13 March 2009(Fri) was the last day of Republic Polytechnics' enrollment exercise and that week too, I made the heartbreaking decision to pass up on this promising opportunity which I've been yearning for since I graduated with my O'levels. :( I do realize it's not the end of the world, i mean, it's not like there isn't an alternative and i know, my options are extensive to begin with, unquestionably. Thing is, despite the boundless measures I've taken to reason with myself, it seems to pain me all the same everytime I dwell on it. I loathe the fact that I didn't have a choice, that it was all unjust for me! argh! Just why oh why does it have to end like this?? *sigh* Anyhow, it's been slightly past a week now since I last set my mind to that verdict and i must say i'm affably impressed with my current progress amidst all these tension, running in my veins. I should have given more credit to myself before, coz I never thought I would have been able to convince my thoughts away from a nervous collapse as successfully as I had fared. I'm well over it now, i could say. :) At the moment, I'm anxiously awaiting a pending application for a part-time pre-sch teaching diploma course which i've sent out to Ngee Ann polytechnic two Sundays ago though i'm feeling a hint of relief, eversince my kindhearted boss graciously agreed to release my Saturdays, just so that I could pursue my part-time academics. Nice, isn't it? And for a while, I thought I would have to quit and go on a 5 day/week job hunting spree during this recession period, in order to cater my time for school, heh! Matter of fact, his offer came to me as my first and sole good news by far, especially after the draining string of setbacks that's been pouring on me one after another and I do hope it's the initial sign of sunny days ahead. It really warms me to know that i've got such a humble samaritan for an employer, you know, I can never be any picky. I sincerely pray that NP's got room for me, at least, i could finally set myself at ease if that turns out the case. Otherwise, fret not, I've thought up a plan B, though it's the last straw, it's fail-proof, certainly!hee. Oh yes, i've really been exploring my options of late, every bit of it, down to the tiniest detail. I can't afford to waste any more of my precious time! The world's spinning in a blur and i desperately need to buck up quick. I truly wana upgrade, so wish me luck ya! :D
PS: See that picture of us above?hee. I like! I love you okie my cookie monster? Heaps much! *bluek* :p
Zoo Trip
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
The pictures are backdated, alright. They're only a few, coz majority of it were shots of the animals.haha! I know, ask him! =P And we didn't get to snap any in the night coz our trusty digicam died on us by then. We made the trip during Chinese New Year, the one on this year, of course! We opted for the two-in-one entry tix so it was Zoo mania in the day and when the sun set, we headed for a night in the 'wilderness'. Super shagged by the time everything was over! It was a pioneer experience for us at the night safari. No longer night safari 'idiots' now!hee. Must say, we were both bewildered by the creatures-of-the-dark we sighted. Totally out of the ordinary! I personally liked the Tapir and Flying Fox, so cute!hehe. And it's rare that you get to see them wander about freely, soooo the 'Africa' feel you knw, especially with us in the tram.heh! Oh, and Zoo is evidently way much better than before! So do go say hi to the monkeys if you haven't! ;p
To Love: Uh-huh, I had a jolly good time darling! Like i always do with you. Thanks my prettyboy, you're my ultraman okie? hee. :D
Lost
Saturday, March 7, 2009
My mind's been bogged down with too much lately. Especially now that the poly's registration period is closing in on me. I literally feel like i'm about to crack under this pressure! I'm still stuck at being so indecisive and disoriented even after almost a whole month of contemplating..I just couldn't make up my mind! Argh! Err..For those who are scratching their heads now, well, i've gotten myself a place in Republic Polytechnic under pharmaceutical science, hurray! Yes, a course which I've applied for, in my hope to pursue something which conquers a major part of my passion. However, sad to say, circumstances are such that, i might have to forgo this opportunity.hmm. :( Anyway, firstly, congrats to myself for finally being able to hog a place in one of the 5 coveted tertiary institutes in Singapore after a total of two dejectful rejections! Indeed, I was swept with tremendous joy when the good news first came to my ears but much to my dismay, it didn't come across me, that my acceptance would actually unveil many hurtful truths. In this case, this incident justified my perception of the term, 'money is the root of all evil' hands down. Who would have thought that mankind could be so callous as to sacrifice ones' own flesh and blood's future with those mere paper notes that held substantial value as a supposedly rational excuse? Not that they haven't got the means, they DO! Who would have thought that in this life of mine existed individuals that measured my affections towards them via my wealth contribution tally?? As far as i'm concerned, these thoughts never dawned on me altogether, much less, the speculation that such a fate would befall me. All that hopes instilled in me and all the words of promises conveyed to me was nothing but plain empty talks, that was never intended to be made real of. I should have known better coz that has been the case since day 1, hasn't it? I was nothing close to 'special' for that extra attention, right from the start. I was never in their good books no matter how much less of a burden i am compared to the rest. Now that all the falsehood have come to light, i've learnt my lesson, i've decided to go with the drift. No, i'm not gonna change, i committed no sins. This is the way i am, i give to people who treat me right, not to those who deprive me and I shall remain satus quo. I shall climb my way up with my own resources, if that's what i'm deemed to do. One day, I might prove it to them but wateva it is, they were and will never be the reason for my achievements becoz sum others that matter to me deserve the credit better. I forgive, always will, but I shall never forget and that's final, i'm sorry. Now, I've got a decision to make. I'm not sure if i should pursue the full time, RP pharmaceutical course or to just enrol myself in a part time, pre-sch teaching diploma course elsewhere, both of which i could see myself going on board in the career department. I've got too much to put into consideration and it doesn't help that they're not in the least bit supportive of me. And then, there's love. He's been the most encouraging thruout this trying period. Thanks alot baby, for stickin ard always! You're simply everything!:) Age is catching up on me and him too. As much as I would wana focus on my aspirations, i don wish to drag me and love any longer. I truly wanna see us settle down on time and that has to be taken into account too. With that said, just exactly how much savings could i pile, say 3 years down the road if i held a part-time, hourly-paid job in the evenings to tide me through, you think? No-no, I shan't let love shoulder the burden entirely. He's got dreams to chase too and i've got to be fair. Oh god, pls help me! I can only choose one and i truly hope i won't be wrong. Nevertheless, whichever path i take on, i'll never let anytin bring me down and oh yes, you CAN bet on this!
There it goes
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
How fast isn't it? The year has moved on to its third phase now. There goes my favourite month..Come and gone like a rapid shutter, barely suffice for love and I to immerse into our anniversary mood to our full hearts' content..hmm. That's the thing i resent about February. It breezes by too quick to be true! All no thanks to its minimal days count, which brings to my mind all the time, just why does it have to be as such?? and also, the 29th day chaos that comes once in every 4 years leap, wats up wif that man? Why can't February just regulate like the rest of the 30-31 days months? Reason with me, pls! *sigh* Nevertheless, it's comforting to know that there's yet another reason to feel chirpy for every March coz love's birthday is on the way, yes! yay! 31st March 09, my prettyboy embraces 23 years of age. No eleventh hour preparations coz i've already thought up a plan for love's birthday agenda since as early as January.haha! Kiasu, i know! I didn't want to start late lest i end up with nought for this special event and that musn't be the case ok! I'm keeping it hush-hush for now though..sorry! not gonna let you in on the details till the day itself to avoid any unnescessary word spillage coz then, all my efforts would backfire. Oh, and he might view this space too, so dats y! Anyway, to love, if you're reading this, no-no darling, i'm leaving no clues for you but don worry, i know exactly the thing to get you, just you wait and see okie!hee. *MuUuackzZ..!!!*
